Wednesday, August 18, 2010
How Do I Go On
I woke up this morning expecting to turn over and find a message from him saying "HEY BUD!" But this morning there wouldn't be one. As I looked at my phone, screen saver a picture of us, tears filled my eyes. And I couldn't prevent them from escaping.
10:30PM "WHERE IS HE!!! WHY HASN'T HE CALLED ME" I scream to myself. I decide to text him "Call me I need to talk to you" I type
10:45 This is so unlike him
10:51 "Ring...Ring...Ring" Oh My God! this is agony! "Ring" Voicemail kicks in "Hey wassup you know who it is leave me a message and I'll be SUURE to hit you back"
Ugh why isn't he answering!
10:53"Ring...Ring...Ring...Ring...Hey wassup you kn..." HANG UP!!!
10:54 I text "CALL ME!!!
11:00 OMG WAT IF THIS ISN'T A DREAM...what is he is really gone???
There it goes again, that pit in my stomach, knot in my throat, head ache tears.
What do I do now...How do I go on with no best friend???
Who do I tell my secrets to? Who do I call to talk about my day? Tell all the stupid things I thought of? Or said? Laugh at funny words with? Who is going to be my shoulder to cry on when a guy breaks my heart? Who's going to steal my apple Danishes? Try to drown me at the pool? Who's going to treat me like one of the guys? Who's going to tell me to listen to my parents? Or to be nice to my little sister? Who will listen to stories I've already told 5 times over? Tell me I have the worst taste in guys? Be the brother I never had? WHO'S GOING TO BE MY BESTFRIEND???
You see my best friend was more than just a friend sticking closer than a brother, he was there not only in good times but in the bad ones as well. He was a great listener, advice giver, he gave the best hugs and was a great support system, he was the greatest guy I've ever known, One truly deserving of the title BEST FRIEND. And now I don't know how I'll ever go on without him.
Dedicated to the greatest guy I’ve ever know. I know sometimes I took you for granted I didn't realized how much I need you in my life or how truly blessed I was have know you, and that you have forever changed my life. I love you I miss you every day. I'll never forget you nor could I ever replace you. I can't wait until we meet again.